Lost. today, well its was sorta like yesterday, yeah so i went to work of course. pretty boring had to keep smiling and all that shit greeting and i dunno, the ambience in the shop seems to be tense cause vince yip was there.

Oh well, wasnt feeling pretty good to being, was so tired, my first arguement of the day was with my father cause well he just dun understand, i didnt even wanted to shout at him but its just i cant control my actions no longer, and its like a lost state of mind...

Very soon after shouting at him i felt sorta hurt cause i didnt want to, but i did and it just made my day even worst.. then right now i'm all alone again, my parents overseas for the weekend, my brother off somewhere not returning till sunday and me just feeling very very lost..

Eh... i actually wanted to just walk around sg with my fren just for the fun of it, but seems like everyone was too busy, i dun blame them, they have a life, unlike me i'm just so weird... i can actually feel my heart being crushed by an invisible force in my body and its like a heartache but it just keeps coming everyday... i cant help it, not that i dun want to, but my heart just feels the ache from the fath that i have choosen... its is not always clear why, but i do believe that there's always hope in the world for everyone, just that my pool of hope is being dried up..

HURTS... i hope tml will be a more eventful day.... mayb i'll die in bed... who knows.... anything would be better than where i am right now...

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