i have not been updating for over a week... well, i am back to like a boring life with just nth but work and work and more work (attachment)!! haahaha... i'm seriously getting very very sick of work right now.. it's like becoming a torture than being a training programme...

well, today happens to be one of those gloomy sundays, but not because tmr is MONDAY(work again ma), but more because of a personal preference? i dunno, it's like i'm a person of realli deep thoughts and i will plan for the future even way before, like really way before, like in a year or mayb mths... it's like the thing i like to indulge myself in cause i really can 'sorta' plan for wat i want and see how things are gonna be like in the near future if i took these few steps... welll right now, i having one of those deep thoughts, although abit emo, well, i just wanna say wat i think...

i had been having these thoughts in my life, i dunno, i feel like giving up somethings in my life cause i think its the best way for things to happen, but at the same time, if i do give it up, i'll lose the last thing that means the most to me... i realli have nth more left in this life and i'm hoping for an answer... i've been wanting to be where i am for the past 2years, but now that i have it at hand, i dunno if i should take it cause i dun know if i'm doing it for the right reasons or otherwise... will i be selfish for thinking for myself? but i've given so much of my time and energy to it and well i hate to leave but i want to for another reason.... i dont think i'm worthy enough of it..=/

and i know i say this alot, and it is true, it's like i'm living several lives all at once, a life in school, a life at home, and a life outside my boundaries... i can't juggle all these things and still be one person.. hahaha.. i dun expect anyone to understand cause it's really difficult to understand, even i smtimes don't understand it myself... it's like those times when u wishes u were smone else cause u're living the worst life, but i mean everyone thinks like that smtimes, so i keep telling myself its all part of life, but i cant keep telling myself that, and i know i have a worst life, far worst than those kids in africa... i know it's hard to believe but it's just how i feel...
so i'm back to the point why does my life have to be like that, why not smone else? and i dunno wat i shuld do anymore, i just wished the answer would reveal itself instead of me trying to find it...
well... enough bout ... time for some calm and peace...

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hmmm.... it's gonna be MOP (Mass Orientation Programme) this week! hope we gather alot of fun and interesting campers! haha...

well, i think it'll be a fun FO camp! just have to rush out a few things more and everythings gonna be fine... i cant wait to see ASYIQ in action..
well, that's all folks! (((: