hey hey my blog!! well, my blogs supposed to be about the bittersweet in life (LIKE D-U-H, DUH! the name says it all... =_=") but lately, it's all about the bitterness in life thats like feeling up my ever so boring and sad life... hurhur... =/ i dunno guess it's karma and stuff, but yea, who's to say for the all mighty know's best and i believe there is a reason for one's purpose in life...

so wat could my purpose be in life i ask him everyday.... so i wait patiently, lying on my bed hoping that he'll strike me with a reply but i guess i he's busy with stuff, like he has a few billion other people to look after and well yea, it's no worry i can still wait... smtimes, i think he's like showing me a sign and stuff, but everytime i follow the sign i'm like always getting into trouble or getting people i care for into trouble... haiz... so guess, i'm just blind...

anyways, yeah, my life has been a junk yard, wait lemme rephrase that, a junk yard filled with sorrow... hahaha... i have no idea wat it means, i just feel surrounded by sorrow... yea, it always has been and i dunno how to clear the huge pile of junk from my heart and make it free, clean and vibrant... everytime i feel there's hope, it'll just burn away, burnt by the inceneration plant in that freaking junk yard.... i should shut it down, but wat the heck, it's not controlled by me, it's controlled by the people i consider to have a great impact in my life... BOOHOO! =O

well today, i feel that i've sinned yet another time and doing things for the wrong reaons and just living like a fantasy... i dunno wat i'm thinking sometimes, mayb i'm just the person who just want to live and hope for things to turn out... but i guess thats not how life works and well, i'm just dumb.. thank god i'm not blonde, i'd be 2X?(double) dumb! ROFL! yeah...

i dunno man, i dunno if i like u or it's just a past feeling coming back to haunt me, why cant u just forget my number and dun msg me? i'm not gonna deny that i'm happi everytime i get a msg frm u, i realli am till i cant stop smiling and thinking bout u... but it's not wat i hoped for, especially not from u... haiz... but if this is like my purpose in life then i'll have to accept it... aww man... and honestly, i still do very much LOVE YOU...still... =/

i know i mean seem and sound like a playboy or etc. but there's another in my heart now, i may not love, but i realli do like alot... hahaha... in fact i feel quite happy about it... =) but yeah, i know it's just gonna be another fantasy ride again so while it last i'll make the best of it and make ur life like the way u want it to be... and if u find out, i dunno wat i would do... sigh... but one thing for sure it, u realli realli put a smile on my face and u made me less talkative and much nicer (if people actually noticed....lols... guess not bah...)

so yeah afterall, there is a little sweetness in all this bitterness... hahaha... =D i'm happi again... i get happi fast just FYI... lol... anyways in other news, less emo, me and ma frens watched FORBIDDEN KINGDOM today! awesome show.... and it was pretty fun and worth the money on the tickets man!! hahaha... but just to show how dumb i was, i didnt realli know there was such a show the whole time and i kept forgetting even when farid told me tt he wanted to watch the show... i kept calling it kingdom shit... but it's not shit, but if it was, hell ya farid, it's some awesome shit...

thats all... i'll blogg again soon... bye peps! C=