well, it's this point of time when zaid goes E-M-O-ing!! yeah.. those realli RARE occasions huh?! (lame ==') anyways yeah, as the title of the post goes to say, i'mma confused and angry... confused and angry but about wat? see that's where i'mma confused again... i dunno wat to be confused and angry bout? should i be angry with my life, my frens, god (oh dear... ): hope not), my family, or just myself? and why should i be confused about? confused about how i ended up whr i am now, confused why things turned out this way for me, or just confused at my luck?

then smtimes, i look out of the window late at night and ask myself, why is my life always so screwed up? i cant seem to live the way i want to, not even once have i been content with life no matter how simple i want it to be... =/ or mayb it's just me thinking too much... i can no longer seem to keep track of the number of times i keep telling myself, "hey, life's not so bad, there's someone else out there probably suffering more...be positive...!"and then i'd reach into my pocket to grab into my supply of smiles for one and paste in whr my lips should be resting...

then a breeze would blow onto my cheeks and my cheeks would feel cold... and i would feel my cheeks only to find them wet... and so i walk back into the room, and lay on the bed... and as fall into my own heaven, my surrounddings seem like a blur and all thats felt is me, laying on a wet pillow....

(:
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and
I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
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