well, despite recent tiring events such as MUG @ Morbely, Tons of Laps at the school pool, not even getting proper rest(ok.. i shouldn't complain...someone i know has lesser la!), gyming, running... i haven't given my body enough rest over the past few month since school has started and well i wouldn't wanna be bragging, but yeah, i have been pushing my limits in life...

and right now, i'm like at the point where i wanna like just drop everything and run away... away from school, away from home and mayb live by the seaside where i can like recover and be surroundded by the greatness earth has to offer... and yes, i'm gicing up, mayb not because i cant do it, but i just dont wanna do this anymore, i'm just getting too much that i asked for and i'm just in need of a little time and space for myself u know? like to do the things that make me feel me and make me go like WHOA~!

and now, my i'm like being told that i'm not good enough for this and for that... and that i'mma dumb and well, it's not helping me la mum.... u gotta know how to like praise ur words u know, i'm just in a state where anything little just makes a whole lot of difference and makes it so much easier for me... and i dun know wat to think sometimes... i dun know wat people want me to think ALL the time...

lately things are going quite ok, and i wanna tell someone things but yeah, i guess it's not the time yet... and if u might happen to just look thru this, i wanna say that well... i do care, and well, i wanna make u happy everyday.. and of course if u saw this u'd be going "...... eh..... ok..." but.. well i guess that's life aint it... haha..

well, i wanna go and mayb find peace... wish me luck...