dissapoinment kills one's self
Saturday, October 18, 2008
this is like my mood for the coming week and hopefully for as long:-
EMO*period*
EMO*period*well back for another update....
well where do i begin, well, i'm sorta dissapointed with myself at this point of life... i mean i set things in life for myself to happen in my life and i just keep dissapointing other and not to mention myself of the expectations i have... mayb it's just me, mayb i'm not supposed to be even here right now.... all the 'wat if's' and the 'how now' coming my way and everything doesnt really make any sense to me... i'm willing to do alomost anything to make things happen and become better but i dunno... mayb i have failed as a person in this life of mine...
i'm not anyone if i dun feel whole... wat is someone if he feel empty, with no purpose, no meaning and no reason.... i dunno anymore... i'm trying to make the best of things but it never works out.. i'm just utterly dissapointed in everything about me... so wat! yeah... sigh...
i just wanna freaking cry and ask someone to stab me from the back and u don't have to show me your face and i wouldnt hate u for doing it, u're gonna do me the biggest favour ever... but please stab it right at the heart... cause when i die i wanna feel the pain of losing the one thing u have, your own heart... so anyone who wants to have the feel, be my guest.. (:
i dun need anyone to cheer me up and tell me that its normal... cause i know wats normal and not... i havent been blind for 8 years people.. __
something nice to look at:-
we rock! (: