well, i think 2009 is gonna be one of the most depressing years of my life. i swear to god. i dunno, alot of small things have be happening around and i dunno wat more to expect in life. sometimes life is like a meteor, it burns so bright in the sky, so beautiful but then it hits u, it makes a hole in u and even destroys a part of u.



moments, the last awhile but they burnt out and die in time.... some of us, we take moments in life for granted, so i've been told, i do sometimes, but i do try my best to do wat i can.. i know it doesnt seem right, but yeah, i dunno.. in fact i feel terrible, i feel horrible, all my life, i dont know man... i just want to stop time and be in my own space. i dun really share my thoughts to people and i just bottle them up cause i'm not very open... i dunno, mayb it my fault i'm so miserable.



so yeah, i'm in the point of my life, where i need to just find a something to fill my time completely so i dun get diistracted, but honestly its impossible. and yeah, wat i've heard its true, wat i wrote its true, its just how i feel, so its me... i saw smth in me, and mayb its just been in me but its just never been out.. so yeah.. life is temporray, u mayb die in the blink of an eye, so life it to the fullest, speak ur mind, let the world know u r part of it, that u have a role to play.

u know its true. yeah, it's never easy, i will try, cause yeah, i wont give up. (: